STUPID GIRL
2004-03-12 - 12:49 p.m.

so my computer is down at home....well, not down, but i had to disconnect the internet after the ol' ex moved all of his stuff out of the house.

updates:

well, let's see if there are any....hurmmm

well, been going out a lot. went out last weekend, ended up at banana joes ( oh like that was a surprise) sitting in the corner watching everyone else dance and getting totally sloshed while my friend was carefully sipping her ameretto sour....we then proceeded to denny's cause the bars around here close at 1:30am which i think is totally dank....the bars where i come from don't close until 3am, and even then you can still stick around and drink if you know enough people. so while at dennys the alcohol really starts to set in and then we realize that we are not the only people in there and that everyone who was at banana joes has flocked up there for the 2am grease fest that ensues after a night of drinking and dancing. i decided (as always when enebriated) to give the ol booty call a call and see what was up with him. of course he doesn't answer...but then a few mins later, he calls me back to see what was up. we talk, i apologize for the messages that i left the last time he didn't call me back on one of my druken phone calling sprees and told him that i was wasting my time and his blah blah blah. we then delve into the subject of what the def of a "booty call" really is: i explain my half of the def and then he explains his half of the def and then i realize that both of our defs have nothing to do with each other....bad...but that didn't stop me from throwing out another booty call offer and he said that he would call me in 20 or 30 mins to see where i was with heading home. soooo, off to home i head, dropping my friend off at her house and then heading home myself. it's 3:30am now, and still no call. so i call him and let him know that i have cleaned off the bed and that i will be up until 4am and that to call me. no call. 4 am...still no call. so i called him again, (cause i just don't know when to end it!! stupid girl) and leave him a message that i was hitting the sak and that he could come over sunday night and watch home movies with me on tv if he wanted to. SO you can guess that by this entry, he did neither. he hasn't even called to see if i was alive. SOMEONE REMIND ME WHY I KEEP TRYING????....ok, well, that all behind me, i had an epiphany about relationships between men and women. i started to feel bad becuase someone out there could NOT LIKE me cause of something completely out of my control just like i don't like someone becaue they are ugly, or fat or something like that. HOW SHALLOW AM I? and HOW BAD DO I FEEL ABOUT THAT?

yesterday - tomorrow