Errg.....roadblock
March 31, 2010 - 9:01 pm

Today I feel close to you, not scared of you leaving oddly enough. I wonder how long this feeling will last. It wont last forever like i wish it would..i like feeling this secure and care free, solid, on top of the world. But then, doubt, insecurity, terrible thoughts creep into my body and sprout seeds of poision and my thougts are held prisoner once again and all of the good things, all the wholeness that i think other people expierience and i want to as well goes up in smoke as the grim realization sets in that i will always be a prisioner of my thoughts..........how they betray me...

yesterday - tomorrow